February 17, 2011

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My Life...

Officially Married February 17, 2006
Age 19

Officially Separated February 8, 2011
Age 24

Officially Divorced August _____, 2011
Age 24


OK - So I just wrote a blog and it go deleted!! - This one will not be the same. But I guess the other one was not meant for people to read.

I have been married for 5 years and it is now coming to an end. Very sad thought and sad situation to go through.


How my life will turn out? I am not sure. How I feel right now? I am not sure, hurt, confused, sad, irritated.
A lot of people said don't do it - did I put my whole effort into the marriage. Part of me wants to think yes, and the other part of me thinks no.

I need to make myself ready for the next person if there will ever be another person. Needs to be love and not lust of course, not infatuation either. I don't want to take the same road as my parents , but it looks like I am coming to the road sooner than them.  I was a proud boaster that my parents were still married when I was in High School, since in elementary I have had many friends whose parents were divorce already, not happy for there situations, but grateful for my own.

My parents got divorced when i was already married and out of the house. So I don't think It bothered me that much tho i haven't fully analyzed the whole situation. Not sure if I really want to think about it. Well I don't want to think about it. I'm kinda  in an "OK, so be it" place. Things happen, sorry, move on from there. I don't want to deal with every emotion and feeling that I can make myself think about. Why not keep living and worry about things or not at a later time. If and when I see a Psychiatrist/Psychologist? (Need to look up the meanings of both) or Therapist I will spill my entire life out and let them analyze what and who I am - but for now, I need to figure out who I am and part of me doesn't have the time.

I barely have time to blog and get my feelings of the day out.

So much needs to be done, it's too much to tell right now. So I will stop here for now.
This is pretty therapeutic so I will come back more often.

For now - Back to work. :)

Good Day,

Luv - Louise <3

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